Just a little update
A Montana Reject and Proud Raving Lunatic
Today was kind of a good day ... I had company! Lately I don't get a lot of that, so whenever I do, I make the most of it. I put on a good face, try to be hospitable, remember that a sense of humor goes a long way, and try not to focus too much on what I am experiencing health-wise.
As I visited with my friends, I was reminded that there are others that are also experiencing difficulty in their life. It is comforting to know that I have survived to try and lend a hand to those around me that I care about. I guess life only loses "purpose" when we allow it to. As long as we continue to fight, we have a mission.
I am not as good as I once was about getting inside someone else's problem and finding an adequate solution. I am so busy concentrating on my problem I think, that the insight I once had is gone, or at least stifled. I wish that were not so, but honestly don't know how to redirect myself, and change direction right now. I guess I am where I am, and that is where I am supposed to be right now. To everything there is a purpose ... I just wish I knew for certain what the purpose was right now.
I never would have imagined this would have gone on this long. In my life, prior to cancer, I didn't understand pain fully. Oh, I had been in pain, but had no real understanding of it until this. Pain 24/7 for three years, and particularly since I went off morphine is something one has to experience to relate to. Not a day goes by I don't pray for relief .... patience is wearing thin, while I continue to hope that at some point, my life will be more tolerable.
Later.
Today was kind of a good day ... I had company! Lately I don't get a lot of that, so whenever I do, I make the most of it. I put on a good face, try to be hospitable, remember that a sense of humor goes a long way, and try not to focus too much on what I am experiencing health-wise.
As I visited with my friends, I was reminded that there are others that are also experiencing difficulty in their life. It is comforting to know that I have survived to try and lend a hand to those around me that I care about. I guess life only loses "purpose" when we allow it to. As long as we continue to fight, we have a mission.
I am not as good as I once was about getting inside someone else's problem and finding an adequate solution. I am so busy concentrating on my problem I think, that the insight I once had is gone, or at least stifled. I wish that were not so, but honestly don't know how to redirect myself, and change direction right now. I guess I am where I am, and that is where I am supposed to be right now. To everything there is a purpose ... I just wish I knew for certain what the purpose was right now.
I never would have imagined this would have gone on this long. In my life, prior to cancer, I didn't understand pain fully. Oh, I had been in pain, but had no real understanding of it until this. Pain 24/7 for three years, and particularly since I went off morphine is something one has to experience to relate to. Not a day goes by I don't pray for relief .... patience is wearing thin, while I continue to hope that at some point, my life will be more tolerable.
Later.
posted by webegeeks | 9:48 PM
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