The Process
Montana Reject and Proud Raving Lunatic
God has a sense of humor! Anyone who doubts that need only to look at me, and you won't need a microscope to see what I am talking about. I was blessed with strong ambition, surly disposition, obnoxious behavioral characteristics in general, and specifically the willingness to get in anyone's face at any time over anything! The humor comes in when you consider that God also gave me the privilege of being the latest bloomer as far as stature goes on the face of the planet.
The consequence of my lionheart attitude and my diminutive stature was that I got my ass kicked a lot growing up. It became a challenge to me after a while to just keep after it thinking all the while that eventually, the tide would turn. It did not do that while I was still in my "hey let's rumble" phase. By the time my body had matured to the point where I was bigger than most of the kids in my class, my disposition had also changed. I had grown up just a little emotionally too, and no longer saw the need to try and wipe the floors with my peers. I had become sensible, sort of!
I mentioned before about inheriting the obnoxious gene from my dad. Well, I did in a big way! In that regard, I will be eternally six years old I think. I love to argue .... I think I might just have made a good lawyer for that reason, but then again, maybe not as I genuinely don't believe I could develop the abundance of character flaws attorneys all seem to have.
I have much to my chagrin managed to seriously piss off, offend, or alienate every one of my friends at one time or another, and regarding my family, I sincerely don't know how they tolerated my antics throughout their lifetime. I must have some redeeming quality though, because I know without a shadow of a doubt that I am loved by all my family members, and my true friends have always found it in their hearts to forgive my transgressions. I am a very lucky man in that regard!
Now, there are those who presently are most likely pissed off at me. All I can say is that whatever I said, did, did not do, or neglected to notice was unintentional, and my truest nature is that I don't want to hurt or offend anyone. I am just incapable of better behavior because I am predisposed to be an idiot at times.
Now, I want to say a few things about my dad. What a tremendous gift he was to us all in spite of his faults. My dad had a really rough childhood, but made certain that his children did not! He instilled in each of us love of country, pride in ourselves, and the courage and will to be honorable adults. I wish he knew how much his guidance and friendship meant to me. His generosity of spirit, time, and resources have literally kept me alive at various times in my life, and the truth of the matter is, he only failed me one time. One time, and that is a damn good record for any father.
The last time I saw dad, I thanked him for being the man he is. And, I meant every word I said. I wish I would have been the father he was, but I have failed my children in so many ways, I don't know how they can stand me at all.
There isn't much I can say about life that is any more true that this, at least in my case. Life itself will wipe the floor with you if you let it. I thank God I learned to pick myself up, dust myself off, and come out swinging again at an early age. Being willing to take your blows is part and parcel of being a whole person, and having the gumption, determination, and grit to fight the good fight is essential if you want to be an honorable person. My dad taught me that ... his obnoxious gene served us all well. Isn't it a wonderful world God has given us. He knew just who I needed as a father and mother, and dropped me right in the middle of exactly what I needed.
Everything about our lives is a part of a larger vision, a purpose, and a grand process is involved. Once you realize that whatever your circumstance is, it is a part of the process that God has chosen for your betterment, the quicker you will be able to handle whatever that circumstance is. And that my friends, is why I can go on in spite of the circumstance I find myself in. It isn't a pleasant circumstance, but I am counting on my belief that God doesn't make mistakes, so the situation I find myself in is one small piece of God's perfection.
This attitude (and my own obnoxious character) has gotten me a long way.
Life is Good!
Later
God has a sense of humor! Anyone who doubts that need only to look at me, and you won't need a microscope to see what I am talking about. I was blessed with strong ambition, surly disposition, obnoxious behavioral characteristics in general, and specifically the willingness to get in anyone's face at any time over anything! The humor comes in when you consider that God also gave me the privilege of being the latest bloomer as far as stature goes on the face of the planet.
The consequence of my lionheart attitude and my diminutive stature was that I got my ass kicked a lot growing up. It became a challenge to me after a while to just keep after it thinking all the while that eventually, the tide would turn. It did not do that while I was still in my "hey let's rumble" phase. By the time my body had matured to the point where I was bigger than most of the kids in my class, my disposition had also changed. I had grown up just a little emotionally too, and no longer saw the need to try and wipe the floors with my peers. I had become sensible, sort of!
I mentioned before about inheriting the obnoxious gene from my dad. Well, I did in a big way! In that regard, I will be eternally six years old I think. I love to argue .... I think I might just have made a good lawyer for that reason, but then again, maybe not as I genuinely don't believe I could develop the abundance of character flaws attorneys all seem to have.
I have much to my chagrin managed to seriously piss off, offend, or alienate every one of my friends at one time or another, and regarding my family, I sincerely don't know how they tolerated my antics throughout their lifetime. I must have some redeeming quality though, because I know without a shadow of a doubt that I am loved by all my family members, and my true friends have always found it in their hearts to forgive my transgressions. I am a very lucky man in that regard!
Now, there are those who presently are most likely pissed off at me. All I can say is that whatever I said, did, did not do, or neglected to notice was unintentional, and my truest nature is that I don't want to hurt or offend anyone. I am just incapable of better behavior because I am predisposed to be an idiot at times.
Now, I want to say a few things about my dad. What a tremendous gift he was to us all in spite of his faults. My dad had a really rough childhood, but made certain that his children did not! He instilled in each of us love of country, pride in ourselves, and the courage and will to be honorable adults. I wish he knew how much his guidance and friendship meant to me. His generosity of spirit, time, and resources have literally kept me alive at various times in my life, and the truth of the matter is, he only failed me one time. One time, and that is a damn good record for any father.
The last time I saw dad, I thanked him for being the man he is. And, I meant every word I said. I wish I would have been the father he was, but I have failed my children in so many ways, I don't know how they can stand me at all.
There isn't much I can say about life that is any more true that this, at least in my case. Life itself will wipe the floor with you if you let it. I thank God I learned to pick myself up, dust myself off, and come out swinging again at an early age. Being willing to take your blows is part and parcel of being a whole person, and having the gumption, determination, and grit to fight the good fight is essential if you want to be an honorable person. My dad taught me that ... his obnoxious gene served us all well. Isn't it a wonderful world God has given us. He knew just who I needed as a father and mother, and dropped me right in the middle of exactly what I needed.
Everything about our lives is a part of a larger vision, a purpose, and a grand process is involved. Once you realize that whatever your circumstance is, it is a part of the process that God has chosen for your betterment, the quicker you will be able to handle whatever that circumstance is. And that my friends, is why I can go on in spite of the circumstance I find myself in. It isn't a pleasant circumstance, but I am counting on my belief that God doesn't make mistakes, so the situation I find myself in is one small piece of God's perfection.
This attitude (and my own obnoxious character) has gotten me a long way.
Life is Good!
Later
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